i bet it wouldn't be that hard to guess what i was doing when the new year came in.
yes people, i was working.
standing at the cashier for hours in the row.
almost losing my voice.
and my phone spoiled.

MY NEW PHONE FUCKING SPOILED.

so the new year came in. i woke up crying because i finally realised that my boss is really gone and he wont be coming back anymore. it just makes me miss him like shit. he was a really understanding boss. honestly. i don't think i'd be able to fine one like him where he's seen me cry and laugh and basically. seen me at my best and worst. and he was someone so willing to push me to do even better.
how many of you get to have bosses like that?
i guess the 1st wasn't the best. because waking up crying and crying at work isn't the best way to celebrate the new year. i guess i'm off to find another job. sell my backside or something.
but according to ben, its selling the front side.

the 2nd day of the new year seems to be a better one.

my tattoo is itchy and its starting to peel.

and i'm starting to miss some people.

but i have somethings to say first.

to CS, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO! i hope that you're patient enough to wait for what you're waiting for.
to Sherilyn, love isn't something to fear. give it everything you got and you'll realise that there's magic in the world. and it came from you.
Kaira, hopefully, one day you'll realise. everything happens for a reason.
Imah, i'm sure everything will get better and better.
Shanie, hope you'll get hoody soon!
Shakthee, she's still looking for her prince charming. which i'm sure will appear soon la.
all my other friends, may all the goals you set for the future be achieved.

what i want for the new year?
same as last year i guess. although i dont remember what i typed last year.
i want to live life.
to love and hate with all i have so that i experience everything raw.
now i feel like eating jap food.

my tattoo is itchy. did i mention?

and i want to be friends with you again.
even if there's some part of me that i can't let go.
but its something that i dont want to lose.
which was this thing that we shared that was only for us.
i hate this.

i thought i had the strength.
but in the end.
all i did was breakdown.